Man, just getting home. It’s 3 am, I’m leaking cum out of my..

Man, just getting home. It’s 3 am, I’m leaking cum out of my holes, and I got fucked so good I almost agreed to move in with Shane. His dick just hits differently inside of me. It must be that 30 yr old cock still has that youthful steel hard stiffness that turns my insides into soup. His dick is so hard I can feel it make a path for itself inside of me. I can feel him cum. I mean, I can feel his jizz hitting my insides like it’s a cum power washer. I can feel when other guys cum inside of me from the warm lube sensation but with Shane…I can feel it hit the walls of my pussy. It’s a massive, super cool turn-on. It makes me want to feel his dick power-washing my pussy down again. Which made me think that I thought when he came into my mouth tonight, his jizz hit the roof of my mouth with a bit of force. I didn’t put the 2 together until I felt his sperm hitting hard inside my guts. Now that I think about it…I don’t think I have yet to see Shane’s dick pump jizz. It’s always been in one of my holes. I’ll fix that soon. I want to see how far his jizz flies so I can get a sense of how hard his cum is spraying the walls of my ass and pussy down. I chalk it up to a sexual science experiment.

I have to get my head on straight with sex. I’m letting my orgasms, which are the strongest they have ever been in my life, control my emotions. I’m sure the intensity and duration of these massive cum’s are directly related to my age. I’m the horniest I have ever been…and that’s saying something. Still, when I have these massive orgasms, I find myself drawn to the man who gave them to me. Not just physically but emotionally as well. My husband doesn’t give me orgasms, so he’s suffering the consequences. I guess it’s instinctual for me to be more attached and have stronger feelings for the men who breed me to the point I can’t breathe or think after their dick gives me an earthquake of an orgasm. I feel bad for Scott, but I’m sure he understands. I mean, these men are outperforming him in every way sexually. Of course, I will be drawn to them emotionally more than I am to him. It’s all kind of a new feeling for me that I never thought possible. Don’t take this the wrong way. I like this feeling. I like it very much. I’m cruel and selfish when it comes to Scott, and I’m finding that having feelings for more than one man is incredibly exciting…even if it is a gut punch to Scott. Especially since it’s a gut punch to Scott. I am not shy about telling Scott all of this. I get wet thinking about how stressed out he must be about it. I get almost orgasmic watching his defeated expression when I tell him I’d rather be with Jake… Shane…or Brandon, then I would be with him. Ouch…I sound awful and self-absorbed…but I’m wet as fuck talking about it, so I’ll leave it at this.