Asked my bodyguard to take 10-20 minutes to record videos of..
Added 2021-10-29 17:24:44 +0000 UTCAsked my bodyguard to take 10-20 minutes to record videos of me smashing pumpkins outside. He shared extra ideas like getting a hotel room and taking pics of me in 10 outfits. This immediately triggered me into anxiety because I can’t even match my stockings or cosplays or find my eyeliner. I had another breakdown. I don’t know why he couldn’t just let me enjoy a Halloween tradition I wanted to start for myself. Even if he let me have 5 minutes to try and smash pumpkins, that would have been really fun for me.
