Hey, everyone! My team felt a little tired from the bullying..

Hey, everyone! My team felt a little tired from the bullying of me and trying to fight all the negative people so I changed my name to maihero here. Thank you for your continued support and understanding of what’s happened to me in the past. I have never done anything out of legit mal intent and I’m sorry for expressing myself that day before having a chance to explain what happened. I didn’t say anything negative about any group of people and it was more of a, I need to honestly acknowledge my feelings and maybe even talk about what just happened to me and try to start a conversation. There is no justice or peace for me, either and it hurts to see it all and feel it. I get over 30 messages or comments a day calling me a racist monster and I just really can’t really take it anymore. I don’t want to be at the bottom tier of the social justice pyramid anymore and my existence needs to be acknowledged, too. It didn’t turn out how I thought it would and I had taken it down after my psych appointment to calm me and help me recover from what happened to me. I was assaulted that day and a complete mess because I didn’t even know his name and I was just walking outside. There’s no justice for me and I knew I didn’t have it in me to call the police and file charges cuz I know the system is unjust. I was left with pain, chaos, no support and years of bullying and harassment for trying to say I’m tired from how I’m seen and treated. as well as assaults and hate crimes committed against me and my family by other people of color. It hurts. I don’t know what to do as an Asian woman in this time period. I was really messed up for a long time and couldn’t leave the house. I don’t have any interests in making friends out of fear and have just started going outside again during normal hours after being a shut in for a very, very, very long time. Again. (I don’t look on social media like Facebook, Reddit or 4chan or wherever everyone is socializing and someone bigger than me taught me not to. Im happier this way. Also, that any promotion is good promotion. I’m still setting myself up mentally to be strong for all of this. There’s just been too much and I don’t even trust myself to make decisions on who to talk to anymore. I was in college when I first started talking to the “famous gamer” and I have always regretted opening his dm since he leaked my content. There’s just too much I’ve been carrying in the past, too and I’m ready to move on. I’m still committed to staying single and pursuing my causes and dreams. Thanks to everyone who has been kind and supportive. You’re strong and I continue because you keep me strong and nurture the humanity in me. I love you! Yes, I know I talk a lot. No, I don’t care. Xoxo 🤣♥️♥️♥️♥️