When I was younger and looked at porn magazines and videos, ..

When I was younger and looked at porn magazines and videos, I would lose my erection whenever a model would spread his hole for the camera. It just seemed so lewd, brazen, confrontational, and...well...nasty. Dirty. I was embarrassed for the model. It just seemed like they were going beyond intimacy, into something so personal that it was not meant to be shared and exposed and featured, except by strippers and rent boys, and it just seemed so low to me. Your asshole. Yes, you can fuck it and it brings a ton of pleasure, but it's also where we let nature run its course on a (hopefully regular) daily basis. I just couldn't get comfortable with the idea of a man showing his hole so publicly, for all the world to see. Hi, Judgy! It may not have resonated or turned me on back then, but the way I perceived it was just so fucked up. And since then, I have been a rent boy and a stripper and I loved it. No regrets at all. And I have enjoyed exposing myself and being frank about sex and nudity and how it makes me feel, not only as a gay guy, but as a man of a certain age. And I remember the first time I spread my hole for a photo shoot (maybe 15 years ago or so), I felt a thunder shot to my dick. I don't think I had ever been as aroused in front of a camera as that moment. For the first time I wanted the camera to focus on it, to zoom in, to go inside it. I wanted to show my insides as well as my shell. I wanted to be as intimate with the camera as I could possibly be. I wanted to get nasty and seductive and invite the viewer to lick it, to play with it, to put their cock inside of me. I remember that the photographer was a little shocked but definitely into it...he just kept egging me on as he was a total ass freak, and I went to town on my own hole, stuffing my fingers in it, stretching it as far as it would go in all directions, and all the time, he kept saying things like "Yeah, feel my tongue on it. I want to shove my cock in there. I want you to feel it all the way in. Deeper. Deeper. Spread that hole for me. Spread that fuckin' hole!" Oh my god. It was just the most flat out sexy moment. And since then, it's just a part of what turns me on. When I do it, I feel like I'm challenging the camera and the viewer to decide how THEY feel about what I'm doing, and I fucking love that. Some may find it nasty, some may get turned on, some may not give a shit, but I love how it makes me feel. Bawdy. Vulnerable, yet strong. Sleazy, but sexy. Incendiary, but audacious. And totally shameless, which is my mission in life. No shame. Instead of being ashamed of a sex act or exposing yourself, think beyond that...how does it make you feel if you're being honest about it? Chances are, it excites you. Arouses you. Makes you sweat. Go there. Go beyond the shame. Go to the joy. Spread your hole (literally or figuratively). Challenge yourself to go beyond your comfort zone. I did, and it opened me up (in so many ways). So let's focus today on that. Today, I want to present my hole to you, with music that is reminiscent of those porn films that used to unnerve me. Now, I'm owning it and loving how "nasty" makes me feel. Here's "Holecentric."