You'll either love this or hate this. I've often been asked ..

You'll either love this or hate this. I've often been asked what a photo shoot is like. It truly depends on the photographer, the concept, the venue...so many variables. I thought it might be fun to do a simple erotic photo shoot, no real story, just portraits, but have a video camera running while we shoot. You are the camera. I asked John Mar, a good pal and a photographer I've worked with many times (go look back at my photo shoots and you'll see his name a lot) if he would shoot me and I'd set up my phone to video it. We've gotten great stuff together, from conceptual shoots to dick pics. He has a really cool backyard with many levels so we just thought we would start up top and then move on down. Very often when we're going for something specific, he'll provide props or costume pieces or toys and directions as we shoot to fulfill his vision, but since his neighbors were home we didn't want to make too much noise. They don't need to hear "Spread your hole! Yeah! That's it!" (he never says things like that, but you get the idea). We wanted to make this simple, so as he shot, I just started where I was at and wherever it went, it went (the mask was just to see if it would be a viable "story element." It wasn't.) About halfway through all this, we were in a place where I could chat a little with you, so I share some tips and bits while we shoot. I was going to edit this to take out the boring parts, maybe frame the whole thing differently like a short film but look...when you're on a shoot, there are just moments where it's not as exciting. It's work, trying to get a good shot, just kind of living (naked) in front of a camera, and I wanted you to have the whole experience. The other thing that I wanted you to get out of this was that I thought it would be fun if you could tell where the actual good shots would be. You'll see there are angles where my body doesn't look as good, or my dick looks weird, or there's an expression on my face that's yucky...but that's the beauty of editing. You can take out the ones that don't work and present the ones that do. I've always said I"m not an ideal model...not GQ handsome, not bodybuilder built, older than most, but...I enjoy it, I love strutting what I do have for you, and I think that joy shows through. That's my gift. Fuck body shame, fuck ageism, fuck anything that squelches sexuality. However, yeah...I'm still a narcissist and though I made the decision to go warts-and-all in the video, I do want to look as good as I can in the final result, So I'm going to present the finished photos over the next few days so you can see my choices. I don't do a lot of futzing with photos...I think they should be an honest representation of what showed up that day...but there are some photo tricks that I like to do to just zhuzh what's there and make them a little more polished. This is not an editorial shoot by any means...it's much rougher. John and I have done other shoots with way more production value and studio lighting. We'll do another one down the line, hopefully with another model or two. That's a whole other BTS experience (and I'll share some of those stories with you another time). Today was just to give you a hint of what happens when you come to a solo shoot and you're a "Fly on the Wall."